("So there goes my life, passing by with every exit sign. It's been so long, sometimes I wonder how I will stay strong.")

I haven't blogged for more than a month! Brilliant.

I've been real busy with the "After Common Test" feeling. Lessons are more tensed, teachers are making us more stressed, more homework are coming to us and we have to finish within a limited deadline! Annoying much though, I managed to keep my pace well.

My Term 1 report card came back to us and I think I did better. Except for my languages! Yes, I was so disappointed with my English marks. It's really bad. :c My mum is disappointed, and I bet, my teacher is too!

I'm able to cope with all the subjects. Guitar Ensemble's SYF is on the 27th April, 2 days before our MYEs (aka my Prelim 1). It's quite nerve-wrecking though, knowing how close the dates are, how tight my schedule of school, CCA, revision can be. Putting aside my family and relative time. I can hardly spent lotsa time with them, and it upsets me.

Anyway, this week's A-math test, I can't believe I did not put in my very best! I can't believe I did not finish it well. For the E-math test, it was pretty good. Well, if I didn't have careless mistakes, I would have gotten at least 18/20! ;c

Everyday I come home, I feel a weight down my chest. Sometimes I can be very happy, but I can just change back to my sad mode so quickly, like an instant you will never know. It's not called mood swings, but I think I do stone a lot with no emotions.

I might not be regularly blogging right here. I go more on Tumblr, but I'll spend my time most on studying and revision already. I don't wanna procrastinate, I hate the feeling of it, but I am guilty of it sometimes, I must admit. Need. To. Stop. That. Habit! I have lotsa homework to complete this week, and I still have CIP tomorrow with my whole class! But at least we're doing it for a good cause, of course I wouldn't mind helping out! Just wish I could have 48 hours per day.

Your smile could make my day. c:

lotsalove, Regine.

("Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing. It's okay not to be okay.")

I used to believe I could play the piano well, and I visualized myself playing music for everyone to hear. But now, I'm with a guitar. Sigh!

I know, I haven't blogged for over a month!

Believe me, I was very busy with school, tutorials, revision, my studies, worrying about my sister.

It has been hard on me, but I don't really want to show it to my friends. Sometimes I wish someone would hear me out fully, and tell me everything will be okay. I just need a shoulder to lie on whenever I feel like crying, or bursting into tears. Yes, I did cry out sometimes in school because I could not take it, and my friends did lend me their ears and shoulders.

I know everything will be okay. Sometimes I'm just pessimistic. I could even cry for an hour but I don't want to wet my classmate's blouse/shirt. I don't want to trouble them or make them think I am not strong, because I am sensitive at heart.

February has been alright, but with ups and downs. Sometimes I feel so stressed up. Common Test was just over today. And next week there's Chinese oral! :c

On a higher note, so far, the common test papers were fine, except for Chinese. Well, I can't be complacent either.

But I got an A1 for A-math! Which is good, because I never really got that high, and it made me feel better. I was 3 marks away from scoring full marks, but I don't aim for perfection, I aim for further improvement. c:

Chemistry and Physics were fine. I hope I got an A, oh pleaseeee. :c

E-math was alright, too? Hopefully I get at least a B3. I needa pass it!

Chinese, I don't really have anything to talk about because I don't wish to talk about it HAHA.

English was okay. I don't wanna lose marks in my Cloze Passage. Actually, Compre and Cloze is my weakest! Goodness. :c

Social Studies and Geography was okay. I'm still aiming for an A1.

But still, I cannot be complacent. c:

Carol, Chai Na, Priscilla and I were begging our E-math teacher to give us back our papers, but she just don't wanna give it back to us! Urgh! It's rather scary because I want to know the outcome. I want to know if I improved, or deproved, or am I just an average student who needs more coaching.

And now, my sister was just discharged from the hospital. Thank God she was fine. I tried my best not to be distracted during my Common Test and prayed to God.

I'm going out with Mel tomorrow. I need a little breather and someone to go shopping in town with. I really need a breather. I think I'm getting too stressed easily.

I hope March goes well for me. Please?

lotsalove, Regine.

("The flames and smoke climbed out of every window, and disappeared with everything that you held dear, and you shed not a single tear for the things that you didn't need, cause you knew you were finally free.")

School has been fine.

I know I haven't been blogging right here! I completely forgotten about it. :c

I'll just talk about the main stuff.

CCA hasn't been going well - well, for the recruitment, as there are several misconceptions and I really hate it. And all those admin stuff, oh God, sometimes I would love to bang my head on the wall and die in front of my whole onzome.

Joking. I wouldn't wanna die at such an early age. I just felt so stressed. I'm well known for that. I get anxious when I don't get things done.

Camp CORRI was absolutely helpful. I loved Mr Leroy, he made us laugh so much, cry so much (my eyes were so dry after crying because I couldn't cry anymore). He was really inspiring with his words and stories, and so was Ms Pamela.

Dragon-boating was not really OK. Kathleen and I were suffering from our monthly thang and we still had to dragon boat, for the sake of class unity, until I found out I was grouped out with other classes, still with some of my classmates. Well, we dragon-boat and came in third. Not bad at all. c: But dude seriously, the teacher splashed water ALL over us (I think especially me) when I told her I've got my period. DUDE, can't you be more understanding?! :c

4/4 won the most united class! HELL YEEEEEEAH! We had it last year, too! So we won twice in a row! c:

January hasn't been pleasant for me. I was unwell for almost the whole month! Down with cough, flu, sore throat. Sore throat first came, and then it triggered to have flu and cough. I swear I didn't know how I got all these, but I'm sure I got it from school. :c

And I'm still sick now! TODAY! 02/02/11! The eve of Chinese New Year! OK lemme explain it.

Sunday I started coughing again. I remembered Priscilla having a sore throat during Camp CORRI while I was sitting next to her. So most probably I either got it from her or from someone else. So on Monday, I came to school, and was suffering so badly from cough, I still sacrificed and forced myself to turn up for CCA for the sake of being there as the President, because I dislike things being in a fucking mess! Still I coughed a lot, and was suffering within.

Tuesday morning, I woke up and found myself with a sore left eye. I was so terrified, but I continued to get ready for school. While eating breakfast at 6.15am, I couldn't take the pain of headache and cough and that stupid sore eye. My mum checked on me and told me not to go to school. SO, I HAD TO CHANGE OUTTA MY UNIFORM!!!! Seriously! So I rest for the morning, and went to the doctor in the afternoon. It's so scary, because the doctor said if the cough's not recovering, I need to take an X-ray. :c

I came to school today, it wasn't so bad. I missed the A-math test yesterday, supposingly thinking that I would need to take a re-test, I studied for it again. AND TODAY, Mrs Cheong said it's a practice paper for us absentees instead! Maaan. :c

E-math was fine, I guess?

Chemistry was fun! We did experiments! HOORAY!!! c: It's about rusting of metals. Kinda fun, did it with Felicia, Danielle and Germaine.

Had lunch with Kim, Prissy and Kathleen before I went home and before they went off to get their clothes! HAHAHA I bought my CNY clothes real late, too, and thought I was the only one.

Current music obsession - Death Cab For Cutie, Travis, usual alternative music or some other.

lotsalove, Regine.

("Please take your time, but you've got to know that I am taking sight. Oh you look good with your patient face and wandering eye, don't hold this war inside.")

That applies to everyone, okay?

It's approaching midnight, but I guess I took time off from my sleep to type some stuff out.

I don't wanna say 'Heyawz' anymore. I think that's very... how do you put to that... OLD? It's kinda old.

The week passed, really quick. Lessons were fine, pretty much lotsa introduction from our teachers, those get-to-know-you-better games etc.

CCA orientation was a mess. I think I was the last leader to get the Guitar room key from the office because no students are allowed to take them. I mean, hello? It's an emergency to open the guitar room, I need to take out guitars and stuff, why aren't you allowing me? It took my teacher lotsa time to get down. By the time I was ready at the Drama Room with my CCA-mates to perform, I was perspiring like crapshitass. My CCA embarrassed ourselves when we presentated for the first batch of Sec 1s. It was all my fault, forgetting to change the damn powerpoint presentation to the older version because the school couldn't read my powerpoint version, which was the newer one. How irritating can that be! We couldn't rely on the powerpoint and talk-off from it. So we carried on, we talked less, but we hoped the Sec 1s got what we have to say though. We played part of our SYF piece, and Hey Soul Sister.

Also, I was rather unhappy on that day that every CCA had their teacher, supporting them, checking that everything is going fine how it was supposed to be. Whereas Guitar, it looks like we're riding solo without the teachers. It looks as though our teachers couldn't take at least some time off to be with us. For that, I was really upset. And I felt that Guitar is looked as though, a very quiet CCA. Hell no.

OK enough of such unhappiness for a while. I hate dwelling on that day! It was shitty.

The next day, school was fine, then it was CCA auditions. Again another busy day, but we auditioned the Sec 1s. Surprisingly, there were quite a number who auditioned, I guess! c: But one thing that irritated me, how rude the Sec 1s were!

THEN WHY BOTHER AUDITIONING, ain't it? You're wasting your senior's time. Unless you are really keen and passionate about Guitar, I wouldn't mind taking the time off to teach you.

Other than that, other Sec 1s were pretty much nice and smiley. I can recognize some faces that have potential in playing! Hmmmm. c:

Friday, it wasn't a good start to TGIF. But I waited so long for Friday (end of the week), I guess I wanted to be happy.

I thought Friday could be nice, but it started off with myself, getting the guitar from Germaine, playing it in class, not knowing it was inappropriate, didn't realize Ms Juliana came in from the back door, and I heard her saying, "That is inappropriate" while passing by us. I got a shock. A leader should never do such things in class, and yet I did! HOLY CRAP. :c

And a Friday morning also started off with temperature taking, and a little of homeroom I guess. My next-door sitting mate cried, and the best I could do was to offer her a tissue. I couldn't talk to her when she was still crying. :c

PE! We ran outta school, one round, and the security guard (he's so fierce) keeps telling us to use the side gate. Arghhh annoying. HAHHA our teacher is Mr He, pronounced as Mr 'Her'. HAAHAAAA okay.

The rest of the day was fine.

Today, 080111, I was just a homey, trying to complete my A-math homework. It wasn't a good day, I fell sick in the late afternoon. :c I kept sneezing! I felt that I was being 'talked about', like when people suddenly gossip/talk about you, you sneeze or something HAHA. But no, I don't think so. My cold is still around now.

I've got tuition tomorrow. Greeeeat I need help.

lotsalove, Regine.

("The dog days are over, the dog days are gone. They horses are coming so you better run.")

Heyawz!

Gonna type fast.

School started today.

I woke up at 5.30am just to reach school by 6.30am. Dude, I was pretty tired. :c

Great to see my friends and classmates again! We have a new form teacher!

Ms Aileen Tan! Yay! She thought us Geography last year though. She's gonna be teaching us Geography agaaaain yaaaaaay. And Ms Juliana has become our co. form. Still our English teacher though!

We do have some changes of teachers though. :c Both Chemistry and Physics have changed, E-Math, PE. I hope Chinese will still remain the same! I love Mdm Heng. c:

So after the "introduction" of the day, we played some class games, sorta ice breakers to let the teachers know us better. It was pretty fun. But I had to do a forfeit! Which was terrible! Chai Na told me to sing Fireworks by Katy Perry! And today my voice wasn't so good, I think I sounded one octave lower? HAHAHA in the first place why do I know about the octave lol.

Recess was just one word: CRAPSHITASS. Yes this is one of my 'one-word' words.

And because I had to rush to open the freaking Guitar room to get a Guitar, in the first place, I couldn't find the stupid Guitar room key! How troublesome! I had to rush my food (only a small bowl of pasta, ain't enough), probably get indigestion, and rush to collect the key and take the guitar.

And end up being late for Principal's talk. Though I'm not the only one, but it's embarrassing okay! :c

Did lotsa admin stuff, paper work. And I was almost about to drop dead to sleep but had to keep myself awake. :c Hmm actually, the class is rather clean. I just don't want people to litter. Urgh annoying peeps.

And Netto got elected to be the second Care Friend of the class! AHAHHAHAHA I bet she wasn't ready with her speech but I supported her. Majority of the class did not trust her, but after her speech, I guess they did. So congrats to Netto! c:

Had lunch in school before going home.

I wanna state something here but I think it'll be too mean. Yeah.

lotsalove, Regine.

("Loose ends, they tangle down, and then take flight, but never tie me down. Off I go, where I fall, is where I land.")

Heyawz!

<3

On the last day of 2010, we decided to go out. c:

So I met up with Kathleen, Kim, Prissy, Carol, Emma, Chai Na and Netto (who came extra late from work).

Had Swensen's for lunch! We sat at a very far end corner and it was hard to call for the bill. Urgh. >:c

Then we walked around, waited for Netto's arrival. We had yoghurt, too! c:

And it started raining there. :c So we made our way towards City Hall. We tried our best to look

for seats at Starbucks. And fuck yes! Finally!

A sit for each of us while we have our coffee/mocha/green tea/ice blends. c: The group next to us were really annoying because they were playing with cards and laying their asses there without drinking ANYTHING.

Walked around Marina Square, it was chaotic! Because of the countdown at Marina Bay, the city was hell like crowd.

While walking along City Link, Kim and I noticed we walked past Miss Aidah. HAHAHA it was so funny. She was like, "Did you see that? Miss Aidah." I'm like, "Yeah." and then we were silent for a while, and started laughing again.

AND THEN WE DECIDED TO WALK TO SUNTEC FOR DINNER! What a wasted trip towards City Hall station. :c But it was nice to see the rest off because they had to go home. :c

So it was only me, Kim, Prissy and Chai Na. We had Sakae Sushi for dinner!

Ahhhh 3 more days till school starts. I think it will be crapshitass because on the 5th is orientation and on the 6th is the auditions for CCA. WTF? Is the school mental to put orientation on a weekday? Why not on a Saturday instead, like last year?

Ahh well, I hope 2011 goes well for me. N levels! Less Tumblr. :c

lotsalove, Regine.

("Open me up and you will see, I'm a gallery of broken hearts. I'm beyond repair, let me be, and give me back my broken parts.")

Hello there!

OMFG I haven blogged for about a month, I nearly forgotten how to! Haha! :)

As you can see, I've removed my tagboard as it has been spammed by full of... weird people. I don't know

why! :c

Anyway, my December has been quite fine.

GE Christmas concert at ACJC was fine, sitting in the front row wasn't scary anymore. For me, I think that way. I don't like being nervous. It'll make me forget the notes I'm suppose to play!

Grrr, CCA Orientation day for the new sec 1s next year is comin' up on the 4th Jan! I've got to plan. Pfft. I actually hate planning. I mean, I'd like to plan, and we all have a nice idea but I don't like it when people spoil it.

Oh yeah. We had duty on Sec 1 Registration Day. OMG, the sec 1s are... they are fine. I saw one that looked like a primary 3. She's so cute! I hope nobody bullies her, haha.

My Christmas was kinda fun! Lotsa food, turkey, ham, spaghetti (it looks awkward. We kids cooked it. Sauce was fine but not really for the pasta), and I forgotten the others.

Don't laugh at me, OK? After seeing what I type below.

It was the first time I drank wine. I didn't get drunk. c: At least!

Mel, Rachel and I played a lot of Mario Kart Wii and WiiSports. So fun, we even took videos.

I like my presents! I didn't ask for much so it's fine. c:

Someone pissed me off, so bimbotic! No respect! But I don't wanna say. SPOILER OF MY DAY. :)

I'm so tired after Christmas now. I slept at 3am last night. Firstly during the dinner I had wine. Then I came back, I drank tea. WEIRD OF ME!

I updated my Tumblr though.

School's gonna reopen soon, and we'll be Sec 4! HELL.

lotsalove, Regine.

Heyawz.

Didn't blog for long, again!

It's boring. I hate November. How unlucky every year for me.

CCA has been fine, don't feel like blabbing about it or I'll have lots to talk about.

(Still can't get over the fact that I'm having CCA on my birthday AGAIN FOR THE FUCKING THIRD TIME since SEC 1)

Had councillors camp from the 8th to 10th November. Rushed to the current school from the holding school when CCA ended. (insert pissed off face here)

I enjoyed camp though! I'll tell one bad stuff later.

I loved Amazing Race. HAHAA hidden mentos(s) in flour is really sick. Lotsa fun memories there.

Water bomb, too! Just that we didn't know O levels was still going on at the science block. We were playing at the cafe open area, having so damn much fun, when Mr Greg suddenly came and... oh well. I shouldn't brag about it! Just incase I get scolded. Not Mr Greg! Not Mr Dinesh! Someone EVEN naggier!! HAHAHHAHA all of us were kinda in a bad mood because of HER! But we cheered upppp.

YAY TEAM ELMO HAD #3 place! *cheers*

AND OH. One think I'm really pissed. I have to tell it here.

I don't know if the girl sleeping next to me (Sec 1) in the MPR2 will read this. Hope she doesn't though.

SHE SNORED SO LOUD! I can't stand it! I was complaining to Wei Min, how loud she was, like as though her nose was cleared or something. I could've poured water on her or throw a toilet roll at her face to shut her up. It was really irritating. :'<

Overall it was fun. :>

On Friday, 12th Nov, it was Mel's birthday! So after CCA, I rushed home to bathe and all, met Mel. We ate at Suntec @ Pepper Lunch, was looking for Fish&Co. to treat Mel but there wasn't, and entered Carrefour to meet Aunty Jenny. GUESS WHAT! Mel and I fell for our fruit smoothie again. It sucked. I think we're just unlucky. Last time when we drank fruit smoothie, it wasn't nice either. Sigh. :<

Then we went off to Aunty Jenny's house. Mel swam with the kids, I tanned. Not even tanned. I was like constantly moving around! Sun's off and on, how annoying! Darren and Mabel soon came.

I had a card from Mabel.

She spelt my name as 'Rejien'.

REJIEN. REGINE. Not much difference? O: It sounds more like a guy's name though.

OK I forgive her. People have mistaken my name so many times.

Weekend's boring. Mummy and Daddy is flying off soon. ALWAYS LIKE THIS. Leaving me and Rachel alone at home.

There's CCA tomorrow. 8am to 3.30pm. (holds sigh)

OH YEAH! I had a dream! About me sitting for an English paper. It was so hard, I was scribbling down answers. The classroom looked very old school though. And I could feel my nerve cracking because the questions were so hard. There wasn't any passage! Doesn't make sense. I thought it was Literature but I don't take Literature, sadly. They were asking some stupid random questions that seems familiar and related to some storybook.

YAY. 23rd November - CLASS PARTY.

24th November - I'm sure it's gonna be a damn boring day. :'<

lotsalove, Regine.

("It all started out as a feeling, which then grew into hope, which then turned into a quiet thought, which then turned into a quiet word.")

Heyawz!

Didn't blog for long yeah?

Results weren't THAT good.

An underline for my E-math. Sigh.

Makes me wanna slap myself though. c:

It's the holidays. Yay.

But November, you suck.

YOU SUCK.

My whole damn November schedule just SUCKS.

CCA at least 2 to 3 times a week, not just 3 hours, but more than that.

Also, I'm gonna have CCA on my birthday.

That's quite pissing off actually, to be honest. It did happen when I was sec 1 and 2, too. We had guitar camp on my birthday when I was sec 1, and guitar exam in school when I was sec 2.

It didn't occured in the first place for this one. But due to the lack of CCA practices we have, we now have additional practice.

I'mma have to spend 7 hours ++ in the holding school on my birthday! YAY!

There's lotsa homework, too. 2 Geography corrections to do (it's not little, kinda a lot), 2 Social Studies Assignments, E-math online, Chemistry, Chinese reading, English reading and some other "Glog" thingy, don't know what is that.

Well of course Physics and A-math I have to study. I have to study all.

It's this pressure, you know.

HOMEWORK + STUDIES + CCA + PLANNING FOR GUITAR CAMP + COUNCILLORS CAMP + ALL THIS SHIT SCHEDULE = A dead Regine.

For sure, I'll never enjoy my birthday! HOORAY!

I don't blame God. Sigh. :c

Gonna have a councillors camp from the 8th to 10th November.

Mummy and Daddy's not gonna be around soon. THEY ARE GOING OVERSEAS! Shitass. No one to buy dinner for me. :c I'll be some busy shit bee ok?

How? Why aren't I enjoying my life to the fullest?

K I gotta be happy.

lotsalove, Regine.